Prince Charming Maybe

     Like a child with an innocent heart, a little girl filled with hopes and dreams, the thought of prince charming forever planted in the mind. 
    A sweet soul made to connect with another. A union of peace and all things beautiful.
    Like a forest rose garden filled with a variety of roses in different colours & fragrances, so is the bountiful feelings surrounding her mind, spirit and body.
    He has an aura of excellence, an epitome of distinction and royalty is his identity. From his words to his looks to his mannerisms, everything unveils how exquisite of a being he is.
    The yearning and anticipation of that one connection, the connection that brings about all life's bliss and even more seem endless!!! 

Turmoils Of Heartache

                   On this weird evening all i can think of is you and all the things that we've missed out on, it's like i have stopped it all for you and don't even know how to begin again. My mind is not at rest even when i tell myself how foolish i am to keep longing for you. In all this i still feel hope and i feel something more. You are ordinary but i see you extraordinary.
                     On The Night Where The Air Stands Still In Waiting; The Sky Is Bleak And Misses The Stars, Loneliness Becomes Inevitable. Even The Presence Of Humans Can't Shake Away The Persistent Feeling Of The Absence Of Someone So Important. Loud In The Ears Are Sounds But No Connection; The Mind Is Screaming Into An Endless Tunnel And Only Echoes Are It's Reply.
                    Even With The Thoughts And Visual Image, There's No Change In It's Stance, Yearning And Craving Seems Endless, Swirling In To An Unknown Destination With No Idea Of Moments Passing; It's One And Only One Need, It's Reached The Zenith, Now Restlessness Is Company. 
                     The Mind And The Heart Concurrently Sends The Same Message To The Brain, Asking For Solutions For It's Turmoil. In This Distance Of Affection, All And  Everything Around Seems Appalling.
                     It's strange how i still think about the possibilities, i only hope to myself that i am not mad or going mad. There times when i miss you like rain for expectant Farmers, then i go mad at you for little reasons and decide that enough is enough. Then i try with all of my will to neglect you but it's something i can't do, cause my heart reminds me of you and so does my prayers.


                                                                                                                                                                  Just My Musings!!!!

Prince Charming

          How possible can this be? Too much of a dream, too much of a fantasy. Scared to look too deep, how can two different entities have so much in common or better still be so much in sync.
        It's a repetition of others but totally and irrevocably different. The hearts, the minds seem to be saying the same thing, no fuss, no complaints nor restrictions just the blending of both entities.
        The emotions as a foundation, the connection as a pillar. Variety of thoughts entwined, almost impossible to separate. With every passing second the heart beat increases and yearning for more becomes paramount, there's a fevered pitch to close all doors and leave just one open.
          Questions still roam in the head, puzzles with no certain solutions. Even with all the turmoil and brain fist-fight, the entities still seem inseparable.  

Life's Mirage

            There she was sitting and thinking, so confused about it all, it felt like forever that she had  felt the unrestrained happiness and even wondered if she would be privileged to have it bestowed on her again. Different thoughts racing through her mind and the loudest of all was "where did it all go wrong". Every time she tries to let things go, make new beginnings, see the best in herself and everyone around, it always ends up in vain. Even her fantasies and dreams seem far from her reach, it's like she's doing everything wrong and in her vulnerability she yearns for strength. 
       Her surroundings is just a blur and all that used to excite her has lost it's thrill, they now seem more like a figment of her imagination. For so long she has kept it all bottled in, even her usual therapy was beyond her, she's lost the faith in it. There's only been a few times she has felt pure pleasure and felt like a wonderful being, at times like this she begins to wonder why she can't emulate the people around her and be normal.
       She has lived in a fantasy world for too long and don't know how to come out of it, it's been her safe haven. It's time for her to take bold steps and make mind altering decisions, yet she draws back and hides in her shell. All that comes to her head is how she's gonna face the world cause she knows its tough and feels she has no guide nor has she had exemplary models to make her understand it all better.
        At this point she's at crossroads and knows no way to turn, deep down she feel she can do it but the doubt, fear and uncertainties keep popping up and making things tough. She wants to make it better, she wants to stand up tall and face the storm, she wants to strive for the best, she wants to actualise her dreams and achieve her goals. The million dollar question is how??????????
     
                                                       Just my musings!

CHANGE OF SCENERY!!

Hello friends, i know i haven't been in the scene for long nor do i have enough to keep you all going or satisfy your reading pleasures but please indulge me in this next phase of mine where i try to bring a little of fantasy and reality to light. It might be what you need, it might rub off wrongly but whichever way it goes your thoughts are duly appreciated and suggestions on best way to entertain you more is welcome. So please stay tuned and read away!!

FANTASY OR NOT??

       Fantasies are a part of life, some people have     it, some don't, people get inspired by their own imagination. It just depends on what it is you are imagining.
        Sometimes your fantasies get the best of you and then you have nothing to give in reality, situations make people to live in their fantasy world because to them everything is right, things go the way they want them to and everything is perfect, there is no pain or hurt. It's like a hiding place to some, especially when you've been through a lot of heartaches, disappointments, troubles and suffering.
        Fantasy world is that place where life is perfect, you have everything you can ever wish for and you are comfortable, content, peaceful and happy. Your utmost desires are fulfilled. It's a world created by our thinking and desires, often at times it's not healthy to cut off reality and live only in our fantasies. Everyone has desires, dreams and wishes that they want to be fulfilled and our fantasy world is the first place that these things happen before reality. Everything you don't have, you have it in your fantasy.
        The truth of it all is these things can actually happen and they will happen with focus and determination.
  

LOWEST OF LOWS

           There are times when you wonder about how right a decision you previously made is,you begin to second guess your state of mind when you went all in.At the point when you made that decision it seemed like the best thing ever and you felt unstoppable,it appeared as the only thing that could make you complete or lift you up.
            It's amazing how things can turn out,I mean things could be going awesome and wonderful this minute and then you begin to encounter different issues and difficulties,then you wonder how things came to be,how did i get here in the first place you begin to ask yourself.It looks like a puzzle to you and you can't find the pieces of the puzzle,so you don't know how to fix all that's gone wrong.
             The amazing thing in it all is that no matter how difficult puzzle is it has a solution,no matter how difficult some issue are there are ways to handle it,no matter how broken things are it can be fixed,no matter how complicated situations are it can be solved.With that in mind all that can be done is to have a positive view in life and take all that comes your way with bravery and wisdom.
                                                 just my musings!!!  

FREEDOM!!

             The feeling of freedom,the disappearance of negative thoughts,the burden gone.Feels like an eagle soaring high in the sky,with steady wings breaking through the winds,clouds and storms without loosing balance.
        The sky so bright,a mixture of blue and white fluffy clouds,the sun smiling down on the habitants of earth.The blissful music radiating from the movement of leaves blown by the wind,the blossoming of beautiful and sweet fragranced flowers,soothing to the senses.
        The wonders of the world glorifying their creator,colorful birds in the sky flying and chirping melodies calming to the spirit.The heady feeling of happiness lifting your feet off the ground and nothing feels impossible because there's surety in the pillar,support and backup.

MR LOCAL

             It happened slowly but surely,in minute bits the air charged,tension began to build up,words flowed like a overflowing river bank.I tried to stop it but my head wouldn't think,i tried to withdraw but the force pulled my body in.Like a whirlwind in the storm,i was sucked in ignorant of the messages flowing in my body.
           An unimaginable desire had been born and my body,mind and head in unison screamed their want!!In minutes!even less the tug of war in me of "not to! or to!" was gone and all i could see was an intense ecstasy and the ways it could be attained.
            The quivering of my body like one with a fever became uncontrollable,even with the fake stance of aloofness it was all futile.An unmentionable urge consumed everyone present and no dose of reality could change it.

CRAVE FOR WARMTH

              The hills have one voice tonight.a breeze    now blows in delight,an echo's resound yet caused no fright.

   I HAVE FOUND YOU

           The moon in the power of her light emerges and hides her face again behind the clouds,like your bright eyes behind that lash.

         Batter me,flatter me,oh!charm beguile,answer me,flutter me oh wings in black!

             Let your lashes be the sashes that thread my wooly winter,till i find the strength in heat,to say......Welcome oh glorious summer!!You shining thing.

THE GENESIS

          You are like a pearl amidst the dirt,everything about you shows positivity,focus,determination and above all the fear of God.

         You swept me off my feet without a broom,you captured my heart and it's not ready to be free from your dungeon

        My mind swirls in thoughts that i can't understand,my body moves and feels things that are faraway,it's like am getting a message but can't place it's meaning.Am sure you were written in my destiny.

         Am at a loss of words to express my heart felt feelings,I have taken you into my system like delicious dessert,absorbing you like cloth absorbs water and yet i still yearn for more.

           It's just like drinking fine wine,i have become intoxicated and can't control the effects on me.It excites and frightens me the depth of it all.This might be the beginning of madness but i am ready for it. 

Reflections!!!Ponders!!!

     Reflecting is a good thing that humans dismiss most times,it helps to reflect cause it shows you the things that you didn't know existed or the things you ignored along the way.We can move through a phase of life and not be moved by anything or any experience we've had thus far,there would be no impact of any sort to us or from us because we were focused on other things that held no true meaning and missed the bigger picture.
     There's always a wonder in our minds why bad things have to happen but it's all with the balance of life,to appreciate things a  bit more.The funny truth is no matter how bad a phase you go through ,you would still see humor in some of it.It may not be at that time per say but sometime after the storm has calmed.There are times when you feel invisible, like no one knows about your existence or more like they don't care you exist so wish you could fade into nothingness ,the feeling sucks you down this dark tunnel with no sight of anything and then you loose yourself in the chaos,it's in these times that the mind needs a boost,a kickstart if you will.
      An incident of an hour can change a person's whole life forever and so in these moments we try to reflect on the past and know how we got to the point we are,half the times it's all like a haze, you can't pinpoint what brought you to that moment or what made you the person that you are at that point in time.If you find out you've been better after reflecting,you feel a sense of fulfillment,like though things are not the way you want them to be now but there's surety that it will be better tomorrow than it was yesterday.At this time you know that even when you feel the forces are against you,there's been an even greater force for you.
       In the unfortunate of instance when you find out that things have gone from bad to worse,it kills your morale even more and makes you question your self worth,still know that it's just you haven't migrated to the next stage yet and your time will come.
                                                                                               just my musings!!!!!

CRAZYYY WORLD

       Life is crazy!!!sometimes you think you are going through a tough and difficult time and then after that phase you move to another one and meet even more difficult situations and then wonder how you will get by.The amazing thing in it all is that it will only break you for awhile and then you will look on it as a past experience,the only nagging thought is while still in the situation and you wondering when and how you will get out of it.

       Experts in the game of chess might disagree with me but i feel like a pawn way too often,due to how even when you put your heart and will things to go a certain way something!somewhere! turns it all around either for the better or worse,makes you now wonder if it's not just all a game and as earlier we just pawns that could migrate to being kings or queen or the bishop.

                                               just my musings!!!!!!